End of the Day Writing Update – 12,456 words.

I don’t think today was a great writing day…in fact the day itself was difficult. Yes, I reached my goal but my mind is so distracted by all of the horror I’ve seen in the last 48 hours.

There is so much grief across our world right now, the air practically wreaks of death, and for once we didn’t cover it up and wrap a pretty ribbon around it. How could we, when within 48 hours the blindfolds have been ripped from our eyes?

We need to do better.

I don’t want to hear anymore of this “try” nonsense. There is no excuse for the cruelty, and sickness of it all.

Yesterday I thought I wanted to vomit, and today I am livid.

I managed to write. I tried to focus…God I tried to focus, but my hands would literally start shaking. I cannot express to you how…how frustrated this makes me.

This isn’t right. This isn’t just.

If you are feeling overwhelmed, take a breath and try to collect your thoughts. It’s okay to feel upset or angry. It is okay to feel this way…but you need to be sure you are checking in with yourself, and making sure that when these sorts of overwhelming emotions arise, that you are taking the time to care for yourself.

I’m the type of person who doesn’t like to go to sleep while I’m upset, but I’m struggling to write this new chapter because my mind is focused on more pressing matters. That is okay. I’m not going to beat myself up for something like that.

I tried writing a piece describing these emotions I was feeling…because I…I really don’t know what to…honestly I’m speechless.

I’m praying tomorrow will be a better day for us all….

I’m going to drink some water…maybe have a cup of tea, and watch something fun on YouTube. Something that will hopefully, lift my spirits a little bit. I know distractions don’t always help, but it is hard for me to be creative when my heart is…is just crying out like this.

We have to do better.

10k Words a Day

This week I decided to challenge myself to write 10,000 words a day.

I didn’t reach my goal yesterday, and left off at 8365, but that’s alright. I’ll pick up the slack and do what I can today.

I’ve never given myself a specific word count before, so this is very new to me. I’ve done page counts before, when writing by hand back when I was in high school (or when writing essays in university), but most of the time I focus on the story, not how many words are written.

The reason I’ve decided to try this out is because I felt like I had slacked off on my creative endeavors back in April. I want to try and be a little more discipline with myself, just to see how I respond to the change.

I have set up a few mini rules for myself aside from writing 10,000 a day.

Rule #1: Don’t be too hard on yourself. If you don’t reach your goal for the day, it isn’t the end of the world.

Rule #2: Take breaks when you need it.

Rule #3: Don’t add in unnecessary filler words to reach your word count. This isn’t an essay, it’s a novel.

Rule #4: Have fun like always. Enjoy your characters. Get lost in the story.

Hopefully today goes well. I have every intention of meeting my goal. I’m also tracking how many hours I’ve been writing, because I want to see how long it takes me to work.

I’m feeling good about today, so I’m off to get started. My plan is to take my breaks around meal times, and to try not to get distracted by social media (unless of course I get an email from work). I also plan on changing locations at some point, and taking time to write outside in my yard or go on a little walk. We’ll see.